Okay, here comes another pissed off post, nice short and neat.

I feel like every last little thing is the entire frigging world is attempting real hard to make me depressed, lonely, sad and ugly for the rest of my life.

You know, I was just thinking and all.

Thank goodness none of my friends actually bother to read this blog. Not that that helps with matters. I mean, I'm pretty Asian, as it is. I eat Asian food, watch dramas with subtitles, listen to K-pop, but that doesn't differ the fact that I'm NOT Asian, and will never be.
Don't get me wrong, I'm perfectly happy with who I am.

But it seems like everything else isn't happy with who I am.
Fudge Fudge FUDGE!
So what, I don't know that song, doesn't been you have to give that sizing-up face full of criticism and be a bitch about it.
Man, you know, it feels like right now, the only two people I can ever put my trust and faith in is God, and moi. That's it. I feel so wobbly with all my life relationships at the moment, and its just proving my R.E teacher right.

So my current status is unhappy isolation and no-one I can talk to about, which leave me nothing to do with the problem until time forces it away.

Let me tell you, a person I've known my whole life older than me, she's really sensitive. Telling her to go and talk to someone else because they'd care for what's she's saying is like kicking a puppy. Which I did to her. And frankly, right now I'm feeling pretty damn heartless because of all the bullshit that gets thrown at me -and still is being.

It's not really anyone's specific fault, its just if you were to say I believed in fate, that it was pulling a nasty one and hated my guts.

I don't think what my life is about to turn into, I know.
For the next month, I'm going to be feeling left out, fakefully cheery, having to put an act up for social outlets, one main friend I could possibly discuss things with, having awkward, boring and lonely teaching lessons with someone I barely know, sitting a pain in the ass piano test that's making me stress heaps and getting all my not so wonderful exams back for school.

And that's all just cause of the bullshit, as I said before, that life is chucking at my head.
So right now? Someone feeling sorry for themselves cause they had a petty friend fight?
Stop feeling so f-ing sorry for yourself. Be happy your opinions, motivations, inspiration, mottos, philosophies haven't change and that you're not being forced into unwanted situations.
This is probably the only time I'm ever going to swear on this blog.

It's like the fucking novelty of selfishness just became the mayor of the galaxy.

And on that note, adios my faithful reading beaches.
A Cat That Broke It's Nail xxx